Friday, March 26, 2010

Four reflections in the mirror of time that show what you're

1. Behaviour with those we don't like : It's not difficult to be sweet, polite and patient to those whom we love or those who love us, but what actually tells whether we're kind or not, whether we are polite or not, the way we talk to those whom we don't like.
2. What we speak at the back of others : Again, it's no big deal to treat someone with respect when he's there with us but what matters is whether those words of love, respect and honour prevail once the person or more so, the authority he has fades away.
3. What we do when we're alone : To be dishonest is bad, but to use honesty to gain benefits explicitly is even worse. We might say in front of others that yes, it's wrong to lie but if we lie the next moment when we know there's no trap, then we definitely aren't different than others. A crow painted white cannot capture the beauty of a dove for too long!
4. When we're in crisis : When we're in a crisis situation, and we know that only something unethical can save us, it's our decision whether to choose the ethics or a small victory that decide the foundation of our principles.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I felt bad............from the bottom of my heart.........

Well.....today i observed something.........something that i saw and i just felt hurt and more than that helpless..........very helpless....... I was having a wonderful dinner with my mom after i got tired of shopping...... And i observed a family......a happy family...... enjoying their dinner......Good....really good.... But then i saw a girl.... sitting beside them, talking to their kids.....smiling along but not eating anything........On observing further i realised she was a maid..... And i wondered if i could do anything about it? And the next moment i got the answer.......We're all selfish.......we smile if a child just tears a note off while playing with it but how can we waste those precious papers, the source of our ultimate bliss on some blood and flesh that's unknown to us....that's not related to us in any way and more so if it's not useful to us......... Being a future 'manager'.......not wasting my time on the poor stranger further......i concentrated on my chole bhature.......And came out smiling and joking after i was through with the dinner.....

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

When i feel 'right' might not be good......

We generally feel that whatever is so called right is definitely good..........or we can say it has to be good and so we generally don't cross check those right things for being good..... Just as when a teacher rebukes at you for no reason or just tells you right away that you do nothing without even thinking once, he might be right but i wonder if it's good......... Just as when a teacher tells you to be happy and keep your intrinsic values untouched from those of the external environment of the same institution in which he's teaching and you're studying, purists might find this wrong, but indeed it might be good.......... Just as when you sit in front of God almighty while you're actually thinking what color would you wear today, that might be right but it's definitely not good......... Just as instead of chanting mantras if you confess to the All-power and promise Him to be fair and honest in your own words, this might be wrong but it's indeed not bad.......... I sometimes wonder that while we choose between 'right' and good.........we actually don't make sure if it's right to kick away the good for the sake of right!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

When i feel for a moment God is unhappy from me.........

Sometimes, we get so used to extraordinary things(read, people) that we never realize that those special people, their special words and their million dollar smile has become an essential part of our life.......... It's only after we get a feeling of not being able to see those people as often as we do, our fear of not having them around to guide us, to motivate us, to bless us that we realize their importance more........And we feel for a moment that God is unhappy from us so much so that those people would now be away from us.....As if after enlightening the path through their presence, God now wants us to see the darkness once again..........But then we realize, it's not that.......God loves us, He cares for us as much as he ever did...... It's just that He is extremely happy from those good people and now he wants to bless them...... And that's the time when i ask God to give me power enough to be able to pray honestly, right from the bottom of my heart that all their dreams be fulfilled, that all they've deserved may be theirs forever.........

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Loop unrolling.............

In Digital Signal processing, loop unrolling refers to the decrease in computational complexity of Discrete Fourier Transform.............. But it actually, very well applies to our lives also..... When we're born, we're unaware all kinds of vices, strategies and selfish motives.......Slowly....the thread of honesty gets wrapped over by that of dishonesty, that of love gets wrapped by that of hatred and grudges, the string of selfless love gets wrapped over by the self-centered love....... And finally, comes the thread of intelligence, the thread of rationality or i should say the thread of disaster.......... This thread is very complex and comes bundled with something more dangerous than dishonesty- pretentious honesty, something more hurting than grudges - false love and something that's more obnoxious - ability to pretend selflesness...........
Well there's a but to this second stage of wrapping..........it's temporary........it might take years to unroll.........but the loop unrolls and the dirty strings of dishonesty, selfishness and dishonesty lie unwounded.......You might not see them right away........but the day the mirror of heart reflects your true picture in your soul's screen, you might not be able to respect yourself, ever!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

When i realise how small i am..........

We don't know the dimensions of this huge universe.....but whatever we know, as of now, our very own Milky way is no more than a dot on the big canvas of universe.........And earth........well....no more than a speck on that dot.......hardly anything..........And we? Oh i forgot......smaller than quarks and muons.......but we consider ourselves as the highest, the best creation of universe............ A bundle of crawling creatures....hardly any fraction of the universe.....who think that their single sneeze is very important..........who think that every word they utter is the very determinant of what's going to happen next.......who think that they're the very controllers of nature or may be atleast allies.......
But then that's very natural......if you enact a play......for you your dialogues or may those of all of you are of supreme important......provided the rest of the happenings are unknown to you!
And i wonder how we think, calculate and talk about small things and happenings without realizing anything else.......... without realizing that what we think or say actually has a little importance....much lesser than even the dialogues of some unknown character of a play......for those dialogues hold atleast a measurable fraction of the play........

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Sometimes.........when love and respect fade away.......

 We often start the journey towards the destination(though temporary) and always believe that the way would turn out to be more joyous than the experience of reaching the destination despite its adversities. And on that road we hold hands of some people........who we expect will always be there with us, for us.......for whom we feel our reaching the destination is as important as theirs.........for whom we think that our success brings equal amount of happiness as their own..........for whom our smile or tear can be a driving force........ But as the road gets tougher, we sometimes feel that those people now want to leave us behind......for them our happiness is not a reason to rejoice..........for them our smile is not sunshine, though tears might still remain a driving force..........But, eventually we cannot separate ourselves from them......... And we go on and on.......as silent travelers, often looking towards each other giving a false hope...........And the following lines are the true description.........
हम तुम दोनों दोस्त पुराने सदियों की मजबूरी के ,
इससे बढ़कर तुम ही बोलो और भी कोई रिश्ता है?

Monday, March 8, 2010

Sometimes........Ignorance is actually bliss............

Though neither i don't doubt my communication skills, nor do i doubt my vocabulary but there's one more thing i am sure of.............I am incapable of understanding or comprehending some of the most simple ironic or satirical statements made every now and then........ And whenever i've tried understanding them or they have been explained to me, i've always thanked God for making me dumb enough not to understand somethings for good...........And those are the only times when i really agree with the statement that ignorance is bliss......:)

Two types of claustrophobia.......

Well......i feel there're two types of claustrophoia......
1. Claustrophobia of closed minds : It's one of the most prevalent anomalies.......The minds with their inlets closed to anything and everything that's new and different, has never been heard or seen, though some of these minds blow the trumpets of innovation and dynamism but they discard all notes that are different from those established.........They get used to the suffocated environment and the very sign of breeze gives them a feeling of the peril of upcoming storm......So, they close the doors and force others, for whom they care, to live behind shackles, in the urge for saving them from the jeopardy.....
2. Claustrophobia of closed hearts : This is even more dangerous......Perhaps, it's reason is the deficiency of virtue giving minerals : emotions and conscience.....The affected doesn't want to respond to the love, honesty and faith of the other people......The patients just make strategies and plans to take the maximum benefit while shutting all the heart's windows to the cleansing agents of heart.....

Well, at one point of time.......if your doctor's instinct gets active and you might want to treat them with all your force and goodness.............i would like to remind you.....windows broken aren't windows opened........So, the best you can do is just walk out of the shackles........ for your own good,for the good of those who love and trust you and for your lord who has send you as a messenger on this earth...........

Friday, March 5, 2010

The light of darkness

Darkness is my saviour,
Haunting me in my slumber, it hovers when i think
Laughing along, it cries when i weep
Listens when my estranged soul speaks
It wakes me up when my lonely heart beats.

It absorbs in itself, my worries, my apprehensions
And reminds me of my loved ones, teaches me to smile
It walks along me like my soul's shadow
And takes me far away to moments of light, the light of happiness
the light of love, the light of gratitude, the light of truth.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Three things that go unsaid............

I'm a talkative person.......ofcourse that's not a piece of information......that's something everyone knows......... And there can be people who might talk more than i do(this one only i know;-), because you would realise more how much i speak...) or i can say....there are people who can express themselves in a much better way than i do...... Ah....What a factual peice of information am i giving...! Whatever and however you may talk, there are three things that i feel always go unsaid........
1. Love........... You cannot find words enough to express your love for your loved ones......you cannot explain people how much they matter for you........it's just that your dear ones know you love them........and this saves you....
2. Respect......... Well you might bow in front of a person and wish him Good Morning in the most formal of tones without actually having even a bit of respect.........On the contrary, you might respect someone, someone as informal as your dearest of friends for his faith and helpfulness...........
3. Promises......... Promises aren't to be made........they're just be kept..........the promise of being there when your dear ones need you, the promise of loving them selflessly, the promise of being a part of their happiness and sorrows....... they just go unsaid.... but definitely they're not unknown... :-)

Five ironies of my life............

Five biggest ironies.........perhaps the saddest too :
1. I can see when others do something wrong......but i am completely unaware even after i commit a hellish crime...
2. I can listen when others are rude or ill-mannered to me....but i am completely deaf even if my words hurt someone as sharply as knife....
3. I can smell the conspiracies against myself........but i condone my own ill-strategies as counter-acts....
4. I can tell others to taste failure before they succeed.......but i myself feel the bitter even if i just seem to be going off-track......
5. I can feel the pain when i've just fallen from a staircase......but i cannot feel the pain i inflict upon my dear ones' hearts........
And i am an absolutely fit person, with a pair of almond eyes that can see for sure but are hollow enough to wake up a sleeping soul, with sharp ears that know deceiving noise of pain by music and sensible skin that isn't good enough for insensible heart.....
It seems like i'm in a room where the person with the most beautiful hat wins......I can see everyone's hat and hence seem to have decided that their hats are too bad to win and so have assumed that i win.....or perhaps they lost without knowing that the very fabric of my own hat is embedded with the dirt of my selfishness and greed.........

Monday, March 1, 2010

The HR of my life........ :-)

Yes you are right HR means human resources or in other words how employees are managed by organizations.... But for me HR means Honesty and rectitude..... My soul's employees, my heart and brain..... manage the life through this HR........Dishonesty might give you a large appearing matrix of continuous values for the temporary gain......... Honesty and rectitude give you infinitum resources which at once might not be visible for they appear as sharp impulses of varying amplitude and to make them appear continuous all you need is an interpolation formula......And you can just take the shifted and scaled versions, right from negative inf to positive inf..... And that's you've all you wanted and needed.... The recipe of satisfaction and happiness....^_^

Three things that can take care of themselves on their own.........

Well, you might be a courteous, caring person..... But there're these three things that are smart enough to take care of their own.....
1. Ego : Something that stops you from accepting others even if they're right, something that does not let you appreciate others
2. Pressure : Trying to come up to your parents' or friends' expectations or perhaps working harder is not pressure, it's your love and respect for their concern for you....But drowning yourself in the ocean of worries and calculations definitely is...
3. Selfishness : Oh....loving yourself and caring for yourself is not selfishness, but loving others lesser than you love and care yourself is....

And throwing them out of your heart, mind and soul would undoubtedly render you freer, happier and more satisfied...Besides there's nothing to worry for these are good enough to take their own care both spatially and temporally....